Fairytale Nor Dream

2012-02-05T00:57:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm home & I'm pretty upset for certain reasons.
Resulting in untouched homework, mental breakdown, insomnia & everything unhealthy I should haven't done for these 4 days.
For short, I hate my life.

Fivebulous ♡

2012-01-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

"Always & forever"

It was Friday & we planned to swim together.

It is always strange for me to say that I go swim because the truth is I can't even swim.

Okay.. so I told Awadah & Alyna to tell Shahin that I was not going.

And when I told Sha myself that I wanted to go to WW instead of her house, I knew that would get on her nerve.

It was until Lyna accidentally showed off my text to Sha since she was already at Sha's before I arrived.

Plan A failed.

So Awadah and I arrived & we entered Sha's house ourselves. Haha.

That's what bestfriends do.

We went straight to the pool afterwards. Hella, we had a blast k.

Alisa was the first to be pushed into the pool.

It has been quite awhile since the last time all 5 of us spent our time together.

We laughed our heart out in the pool, all be in a toilet at the same time to hit the shower & had our late lunch together.

And... dared Sha to eat prosperity with extra hot black pepper gravy which was the thing she won't do but she did.

Then, procrastinated our time watching stupid videos on Youtube.

Boom, day ended.

I love each of them eternally, x

A survey from Perry's

2012-01-26T03:45:00.001+08:00

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
Twelve

Are you taken/single?
The latter

What color is your underwear?
The favorite colour of mine & JB's

Do you like anyone right now?
Yes?

Ever had your heartbroken?
As many time as I ever been in love

Miss anyone right now?
Yes

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
Shahin Ibtisam

Last person to text you?
The same

Last person you saw?
Jaja, my sister

What was the last thing you said to someone?
Yaaaa

Who do you trust the most in your life?
No one

Ever been in love?
Who never?

Who has hurt you the most?
Should I even bother to type out his name?

What did you do today?
Chores, taking care of my sister, watched movie while got my Maths done

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
I'd love to. Lulz

Have you ever thought about your death?
...and I cried

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
Um...

What color is your favorite hoodie?
PINK!

Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My eraser

What are you craving right now?
Tomyam from Bangi Kopitiam

Do you floss?
When I was little

Have you ever met a celebrity?
I never really take note

What are you listening to right now?
Holes Inside

Have you made a prank phone call?
A big yes

What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
We'll go swim together

Ever have cream puffs?
It's melting in my mouth, not. Yes.

Ever walked into a wall?
Gotta give it a try

Have you ever slapped someone?
Favorite

Favorite color?
Purple, pink, blue & grey

Are you sarcastic?
24/7/365

Can you hula hoop?
Not really, they laughed at me the last time I did. Hoes

What are you wearing?
My last night pajamas

Have you ever crawled through a window?
Standard 3, at school.

Chapter 1

2012-01-20T21:00:00.001+08:00

4 Dorisia/5 Adioda.

See what you see from my school.

So I went back to "beloved" SM Sains Seri Puteri on 3rd Jan.
Well, actually I was kinda proud to be in that school for certain reasons.
And that was when my journey began. SPM year, to be highlighted.
We had been very busy. I was thinking about chilling on the first day of school but nah.
We were given tonnes of homeworks.
Not to brag, but being around the first-class-students made me go nuts!
I cried on the first day and gave Mama a call.
And on the weekend we had Seminar Kecemerlangan Add Maths : "Add Fun To Maths"
Lulz, oh yeah all the Head of Department for every subjects were already appointed.
Congrats to Fatin Ameera for the HOD Add Maths title.
We were dying okay. The seminar was held for 48 hours, I. ma. gine.
The school with less students was way cooler.
I mean like we didn't have to go back to hostel so early after afternoon prep for the sake of the toilets.
Ha ha ha.
Just wait until the Form 4s come on the 31st, die people die. The more the merrier is so not true.
The second weekend, the Alumni of Seseri for the "Seserians: Let's Rejuvenate Ourselves" programme.
We partied rock in the school hall, remember girls?
And we had Interhouse Debate for four days! We won 4 out of 4.
You rock, Epidendrium! *smooches*
Credits to them. It was quite fun & inspiring.
So.. we also pranked two of the January girls; Khaleeqa & Anis. You girls are 17 now!
And here I am on the third weekend of schooling, enjoying my one week holiday home. Argh! No.
Frankly speaking, I thought I was already in March of 2012.
Why? I don't know.
I am thrilled for SPM, bring it on. Oh you know I'm kidding.
Congratulations to my Form 4 classmates Nurul Farhanah & Raja Rosenani for being the Head of Academic & Ass of Head of Academic respectively.

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2012-01-03T11:59:00.000+08:00

Look at the picture in previous post, today is that girl birthday.

And we planned a surprise for her!

It went well although one of us has a very huge problem at the moment.

Sucks you know, when you can't do anything about your friend who is really in need of help.

We felt useless.

I'm quite sad since I'm going to leave my last SCHOOL holiday and go back to my school.

Residential school to be pathetically exact.

Anyway, happy 16th birthday again, Nur Atira Binti Mohd Redzuan.

Be a good 16 years old girl. I love you, muah.

Hello. Last year, things changed a lot since I went to my boarding school.

Hopefully, nothing much will this year.

I really wanna cry now, sigh.

Goodbye, I love you and you know who you are.

My Katy Perry

2012-01-01T20:03:00.001+08:00

I LOVE ATIRA REDZUAN!!!!!!!!

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2012-01-01T07:14:00.001+08:00

It's 2012 earthlings!!!!
A very happy new year, have a well spent 366 days ahead!
Well my New Year's Eve went well with my babies around.
Full of surprises, laughter and of course human beings! Argh it sucks actually.
I prefer to be only with my friends & have our very own fireworks show.
That'd be lovely.
Whatever it is, last night was fun. Really.
I'm glad that I celebrated 2011 & 2012 with almost the same people though things changed.

And for me..
2012 is going to be a very very very tough year.
I need everyone to be at my back. It's SPM year, sweethearts!
I have to be strong. I must.
Not sure about changing but I'll try to act diligent for a year? Wish me luck.
Social activities need to be curbed. Extremely er.
Let's see what will happen k?
For 95's, don't procrastinate. Make use of your time & so on. (This is a note to self actually)
That's all.
Again, happy new year x

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Mon Garcon ♡

2011-12-29T02:23:00.000+08:00

“You're making yourself vulnerable once you fell into this thing, called love”

And here I am vulnerably in love with you. I'm not afraid of it, never.
Ehem, first thing first forgive me for being too corny. You might as well ignore this post.
I'm not good at playing with words & this is just another stupid thoughts of mine.

I'm imagining you are mine, well.. please allow me to.
Love is when you have million reasons not to be with that someone but you still stick to him.
Simply because you believe he's the one. Although you know it won't last but you believe you would & you could fight for it.
Ironic when you let yourself being hurt & never get sick of it nor trying to get rid off it.
I am blinded. I don't really care about what people have to say, they are not in my shoes.
They probably will question what happened to us in the past but I couldn't care less.
If you're a mistake, then you'll be my favourite mistake.
I'm not perfect myself but with you around, everything goes perfect.

When it's just you & me, I mean.. YOU. ME. I can think of nothing but you.
The way you wrap me in your arms, it makes me feel loved.
The way you remain silent but your eyes tell me how much you love me, it makes me feel like no one else could love me better.
The way you hug me from the back, whisper in my ear and let me lean on your shoulder, it makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world.
And when we're hand in hand that's when you make me believe you are mine.
You might not be the best for me and I'm maybe not the best you ever had, but I just don't know how the idea popped out making me believe that we will be the best for each other when we are together.
Everything you do, it's complete me.
I want nothing from you.
I just want you to feel comfortable & share anything & everything you want to.
I want to be the girl who listens to your stupid jokes.
I want to be the one who you first turn to whenever you're in trouble.
I want to be the second you & knows all your stories.
I want to be your number one.
Oh did I say "nothing" before? Well those were the definition of nothing then.

Sweetheart,
Are you feeling what I'm feeling, will you fight for me like I fight for you?
I just wonder.
I'm not forcing nor persuading. This is how life works; if it's meant to be then it'll happen.

2011-12-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

Can I always have yours in mine?

Put A Ring On It

2011-12-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

“This is my dream wedding”

Dengan ini, saya Nurain Syakirah Binti Mohamed & Nur Atira Binti Mohd Redzuan berjanji untuk mencari suami yang kaya demi merealisasikan perkahwinan impian kami.

Atira wants hers to be like Bella's. I want mine to be a um like.. still thinking, 2020 will wait.

Old Times

2011-12-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

This is my bestfriend since elementary. We have been in the same class for 8 years until I moved to Seseri.
He's one smart ass. And I think he should stop being paranoid at times. Haha.
He loves to gossip & he thinks he cool just like how I think I am.
I don't know why I am blogging about him now.
Maybe I just miss my old schoolmates, that's all.
I miss Suraya, Adib the nerd, Zul, Sarah, Hakim & all ♡

2011-12-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

Top 10 Girl Crushes

2011-12-17T13:10:00.001+08:00

I don't know how I came out with this list. But I just have to confess that I have million of girl crushes. Shut up, don't judge. But that's it I just love their personalities & all. So yeah this's the 10 as-written-above who I love the most.

Amirah Filzah
Yaya Johan
Farah Syazwina
Alyssa Jasmin
Effi Zulaicca
Sarah Hanes
Myra Rashid
Aishah Diba
Yazmira Yashkor
Ariza Asri

I have more :(

2011-12-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hi sweetheart.
I'm selling this long dress. Do leave your comment, contact me or whatever if you're interested k?
xx

2011-12-13T21:11:00.001+08:00

I slept at 4 am last night.
And today I supposed to teach Ronal Add Maths but then I woke up around 1.
Hoho. So after Apap, Zaim & I sent Mar to her work place.
We fetched Perry & Princess. Sofea will go to Korea so yeah.
Had lunch & went to karaoke with them bishes.
Screw eyebags.

Anyways.21 days till the day I'm going back to school.
I haven't revised anything I mean anything since holiday started, well except for the tuition class of course.
I feel so bad about myself.
To strive for 9A+ seems impossible for me.
However I want to.
But still I just don't have that whatever kind of determination to do the revision and so on.
Because I know once the school is opened I'll be locked up in the hostel & school.
So I'm pretty sure these procrastination & making December a month well spent for myself will be worthwhile.
Pretty sure.

#nowplaying

p/s : He's my dad ♡

Melawati Project Senior Prom

2011-12-10T13:42:00.001+08:00

It was 9 Dec 2011 and it was Melawati Prom Night people!

So I woke up around 3 and was freaking out. I knew I was late.
Get stuff packed & made my move to the saloon.
And got done with the make-up at Bukit Antarabangsa with Nadia.
Yeah, I was not comfortable with my look although they told me I look nice.

Me & the boys made our move to The Royale Chulan.
Then, I found my table-mates, Marlissa & Effi.
Insecurities, alert!
Everyone was looking so pretty, gorgeous, cute & handsome. Oh I felt like hugging all of them last night!
And hey we danced our asses off. Oh my god.
I really love Altimet & Adeep singing Nothing On You.
And yes, KLDC performance was da bomb! I tell you. It was the best.
That was when I used all my energy to the max that I was all worn out afterwards.
Thumbs up to those who never took a rest from their dances. Haha.

Prom ended. Photographs captured.
It was a night well spent. Fucktasticly spent. It worths every penny, yknow.
So the boys checked in while Mar & I went back to Mar's.

Thanks to the 94's prom night committee! You guys are the best, I swear!

2011-12-05T23:12:00.001+08:00

I wonder if that group of people is stalking my blog now just to find anything that they can talk about.
Oh yeah, having no life after SPM, issit? Mm-hm right.
Flying kiss from me, x

Damansara Girl Got Orange Nails

2011-12-04T00:18:00.001+08:00

On our way to The Kingdom of Far Far Away to find the Princess.

Doesn't it clear how bored I am when I update my blog daily?

Okay, last night was good. Sofea looked flawless.

Daa, xoxo

2011-12-02T04:58:00.001+08:00

This made my night.. Tears bore me.

2011 Flies Fast

2011-12-01T08:29:00.001+08:00

Zai & I made this♡

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHELLO DECEMBER! YOU'RE BACK.

2011-11-30T02:04:00.001+08:00

He thinks of his Princess too much, I think.

When Allah tests you, He knows your ability to overcome it. The thing is whether you have the faith in yourself.
Family stays. Friends come & go.
But I'll turn to my friends whenever I've family issues. I think everybody does the same.
They made my day. We went all insane, even though most of the plans planned were not working out.
Went to random places with others.
Well, we did nothing much but at least I forgot the tears I cried out the night before.
And also, to the Pure Science students of 94's. They are free today.
Ah, really can't wait for my turn next 365 days! :}

I'm sorry we're coming to an end, November. You're not that great, sorry.
Say what? Hello December, enough rest huh?

2011-11-28T19:57:00.003+08:00

Lol, Fahmi with his jokes never failed to make me laugh effortlessly.

I even could laugh just by looking at his face.

The same goes to Aizat, Pecal & Zafran. K, random post.

2011-11-28T18:30:00.001+08:00

When I Grow Up

2011-11-28T16:54:00.013+08:00

Oh this is disappointment.

Now I don't know what to be when I grow up after getting B's for all Science subjects.
My position among the SBP students?
Urm.. 437 out of 9255.
How lah nak dapat Top 100?

Cool, Nurain.

And what's ironic? I don't feel like studying during holiday.

Do I need to? Don't you know how lazy am I?

Hmmm. I'll work my ass off on 2012 lah.

2011-11-27T22:57:00.001+08:00

MMMM, THIS IS DISAPPOINTING. HARIMAU MUDA LOST TO BAHRAIN.

It was a nice game, tho. But yeah..

The last minute 3 goals from Bahrain were unacceptable. Damn it.

Whatever it is, I'm still a proud Malaysian. Ngawww~

2011-11-27T19:35:00.001+08:00

I regret that I didn't put all the things we had together into words. If I did, I'll be able to read them every night. Maybe that will help me not to cry you a river. I should do.

2011-11-27T18:22:00.001+08:00

2011-11-27T15:15:00.001+08:00

It's funny how Mama said I got eye bags because I'm not having enough sleep.

She should know the reason behind these eye bags..

2011-11-26T19:42:00.001+08:00

2011-11-26T16:46:00.006+08:00

“The scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you”

This is what I felt when I left home for my new residential school 10 months ago.

Now? I feel very far from everyone.....

2011-11-26T16:02:00.009+08:00

“A sister is both your mirror and your opposite”

I love this sister of mine, she never fail to understand me.

“It's hard to get over a person you used to love so much before, or should I say, you still do.

Even harder for you to move on. I know & it's obvious that you still love him.

And its okay,its not even a problem.

One day baby, I promise you, you'll move on and start a new relationship.

But you won't forget him. Just be strong for now.

I know you'll go through this, bcs you're strong. Hm”

Eva Ellena.

2011-11-25T16:23:00.007+08:00

I'm not lying. I miss these three girls of mine.

They were like sisters to me.

I miss talking to them. We always talk even to the most random thing ever. We do crap.

It has been ages since the last time I met them.

We barely talk nowadays. I wish I could spend more time with them.

Everything changes.

Well, I rarely meet everyone since I went to my new school.

But never mind that, friends are friends no matter what.

It leaves behind some scars which even time cannot heal.

I feel me whenever I'm around these girls.

I may not be a good friend, but I love these bitches to bits.

So tomorrow Sofea is moving to Damansara & I haven't got the chance to see her yet..

I couldn't even recall when was the last time we met.

Take care, Princess x. You know I love you

2011-11-23T03:20:00.013+08:00

They must be sitting for their Add Maths paper now. Yesterday we gone all wild that we studied Add Maths. This sounds irrelevant, somehow. You know, them & study.. so wrong. Haha.

Okay so wishing you the best, guys!

After five months, finally I met Sir Shakib, again! It was the free seminar at MC.

I think... I fell in love with Add Maths because I loved Shakib at the first place.

He's my very first Add Maths teacher & will always be the best.

Ok. I'm exaggerating I guess.

So yea. I met Amirul at the seminar. It has been ages, like c'mon we were classmates for 7 years.

& I met Nirana after seminar & we watched the match between Harimau Muda & Syria.

We lost though, wtv.

Oh, one more. I ran into Pecal, Ilhami & Ali. Zafran, to be highlighted, it's his birthday!!

Hoho, I miss this hilarious guy! Happy 16th birthay, Pan..

Have a blast, take care of your girl & let's rock Ulu Yam V(._.) K that's random.

p/s: Happy 6 months to Sofea Husnayn & Ali Nazmee, also happy birthday to Zuliana Zilan, his boy & happy 365 days yguys!

I'm loving my life, x

2011-11-21T11:42:00.001+08:00

“No, I never feel right when you're leaving”

2011-11-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

It's school holiday. And to my surprise, I feel no enthusiasm for it.

Well, let's wait & see. It's not even a week of holiday yet, so yeah..

Aaaha, Mum just got back from her hajj last Saturday.

I thought I have too many things to say, but I just couldn't put em into words.

So long, x

2011-11-19T19:14:00.004+08:00

So, these are what those girls in the prison say about me...

2011-10-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

Lily was born blind. Her father left when she was born. He couldn’t accept the fact his child was blind. But her mother loved her very much. She loved her so much that whatever Lily wanted, her mother gave her. Her mother gave her the best. Eventually Lily got used to getting things her way which made her a bit self-centered.

Years went by and Lily grew up to be a young woman. Lily went to a special school for the blind to learn Braille. Her mother worked very hard to finance Lily’s education. One day her mother fell ill and passed away. But she left Lily with enough money to be independent. Lily was quite good at her studies that she even managed to get a job as a telephone operator. At her workplace she met a young man named Sean. Sean fell in love with Lily. He loved her very much that he was willing to die for her.

One day a friend invited them to attend a seminar together. The seminar was specially conducted for blind people. It was about new methods and discoveries to aid blind people. One of the speakers was an eye surgeon who was experimenting on a latest surgery procedure to restore eyesight. But his procedure needed a voluntary eye donator and the waiting list for donated organs was already very long.

When they went home Sean spoke to Lily. He asked her whether she wanted to have the operation. Lily said she wanted it but she dare not hope at all that she would see again. Nevertheless Sean urged her to sign up for the procedure.

One week later, Lily received a telephone call from an eye clinic. They said that can help Lily to see again. They told her that they had an eye donator. Lily was ecstatic, she couldn’t believe the news.

The next day Lily went in for the surgery. Sean came to wish her luck. They held hands for sometime before she was taken into the surgery room.

All went well. The doctor told Lily that she would be able to remove her bandages in two weeks time. Once she removed them, she would be able to see.

For two weeks, Sean came to see her everyday. He brought her favourite food and kept her company. Then it was time to remove the bandages. As the doctor removed them, he told Lily to be open her eyes carefully.

Slowly Lily opened her eyes. They hurt a little. Then she saw some light. It was all so strange for her. She had never seen light. She blinked her eyes. Then she was able to see figures in front of her. Sean and the doctor were standing there watching her. It was then Lily learnt that Sean was blind like she had been. Somehow she felt a disappointment in her heart.

Weeks passed by and. Lily learnt to live a new life with eyesight. She was very happy that she can see again. But she began to feel uncomfortable being with Sean. She didn’t like that he was blind.

Then Valentine ’s Day came. Sean asked Lily to marry him but Lily refused his proposal. She told him that after being blind herself for so many years she cannot think of a life with a blind man. Sean was heartbroken but he left and never came back. Lily married another man and lived happily.

Five years later, Lily met Sean’s friend, John on a street. He told her that Sean was knocked down by a car five years ago and had died. Before John left, he told Lily, ‘Take care of your eyes, Lily, because before they were your eyes, they were Sean’s.”

2011-10-08T00:15:00.002+08:00

They are now in Mekah. I pray the best for you both, Ma & Abah!

Kiki xx

2011-10-02T18:04:00.003+08:00

Finals is in 2 weeks *dying*

Mama is going to hajj on Tuesday, that's the reason I'm home now.

Huhu, and I'm not going back to school before 6 today *shuffles*

I wish Mama the best. Last night we were all worried 'cause she suddenly caught a fever.

Hurm, luckily she's getting better today.

And yeah I haven't seen Abah yet this weekend.

Maybe I'm coming home again on Tues to send Mum & Abah at the airport.

Oh yeah and on 4th, my princesses will be sitting for their PMR till 10th if I'm not mistaken.

Best of luck, babies!!!

Note: Away till finals ends.

2011-09-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

I don't get it.

Why home always make me feel this way?

Everytime I'm home all I think is the one who I shouldn't have think about ever since.

I'm telling you everytime.

I have to stop this. I really have to

2011-09-18T01:36:00.003+08:00

'cos we are too cool

2011-09-16T20:39:00.002+08:00

'Cause they will always be my girls.

One thing you have to be really well-prepared when you opted to go for asrama is..

Losing your friends.

Only certain will stay. Some just don't give a damn when you're home the next two months.

I'm pretty sure every one of my schoolmates face that. But hmm, forget that.

I don't deny the feelings of mine being isolated.

When you meet your friends and you have no fucking idea what they are talking about.

But somehow, that's what you have to face in the future.

You're just advanced.

xx, I'm home seaweeds.

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2011-08-30T23:27:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya.

To everyone, literally everyone. Forgive me for all my wrong doings.

I really mean this. Even Rapunzel is ain't purrfect :]

Happy raya-ing

2011-08-29T01:55:00.002+08:00

Nurain Syakirah,

Chin up, look forward.

Yes, your past is your future, however those useless memories is deserved to be buried.

Stop bothering about them who never give a fuck to give a fuck.

You're too cool for dat bullshiz. Believe me.

They are nothing compared to you.

You're created to be that way. There must be a reason. A very good reason.

You're stronger than you know.

Peace out x

Sincerely,

Yourself.

nevermindme

2011-08-29T01:17:00.002+08:00

1. List all the first name go under A-Z

A : A (*122#, lulz)

B : Beyonce Knowles

C : Cikgu Hadip

D : Danial Azam

E : Edda Syuhada

F : Faeesal Asuwat

G : GSC Pavilion

H : Hana Yusof

I : Ilhami

J : Jazmin Juliana

K : Katy Perry

L : Layung Sari

M : Maisarah Ghani

N : Nabil Zulkifli

O : -

P : -

Q : Qyqy Azmi

R : Ramada

S : Sarah Azmi

T : Taqiyuddin

U : -

V : -

W : Wangsa Bowl

X : -

Y : -

Z : Zafran Zahidi

2.What color is your phone?

Black

3.Who is your last outgoing call?

Mama

4.What does your last incoming text message say?

"Oi I'm listening to dat song k. Haha, night love you like a funeral song"

5.What are the last 4 digits to your number?

4258

6.What is the wallpaper on your phone?

Picture of me & Eyeen

7.What is your main call ringtone?

One In A Million (since forever)

2011-08-26T11:53:00.000+08:00

2011-08-26T02:18:00.004+08:00

Greetings.I'm so glad that I'm home now.

5 more days till raya, gotta live it to the fullest since I won't have that chance after this one week hols.

So.. just had sahur with Perry & Princess. Perry was so bising and asked me to write a post in front of her. Aduhhh.

We watched Sekali Lagi last night.

I didn't think Mama knows they're 15. That was random.

And yeah last night, I went berbuka with the other 12. It was cute except that we missed the firecrackers part :(

Okies. Looking forward for Raya-shopping and going berbuka w others and meeting Eyeen and of course, Eid.

Mm-hm, since I'm going to celebrate Eid in KL, I have some silly plans for raya.

Let's kiv it.

Toodles x

Big Step At A Time : Leaving Everything Behind

2011-08-14T16:25:00.005+08:00

So, I'm ready for this.

Even though it is almost impossible, at least I'm trying & making my effort here.

I will try to stop thinking about you again.

I will.

I promise this is the last time I'll talk about someone who doesn't even care about me.

Just like what I did in my previous post(s).

Maybe sometimes, I'll talk about him but only to myself.

Not anyone else.

I'll kick your ass for mentioning his name in front of me 'cause you ain't helping my "Big Step".

EXCEPTION- I still can mention his name, first. But I'll try not to.

Note that, fwenz..

Haha.

This is the last.

This is over. Well it's over dah lama pun sebenarnya.

Off to school, bye world.

2011-08-13T17:11:00.001+08:00

“Don't I deserve to be happy, world?”

2011-08-13T02:57:00.001+08:00

I'M DONE

2011-08-13T02:27:00.003+08:00

Hello sweethearts.

I have too many to tell actually.

I'm okay. Seriously, literally okay.

Now, I'm home, spending Ramadhan with ze family.

The fact that school only allow us to go home only once in Ramadhan is asdfghjkl! Forget that.

I can't hide the truth that I feel I am being forgotten by everyone. Yes. Everyone.

Well, maybe this is the worst part of being a residential school student.

I can handle this no more. I want my life back.

I seriously can't wait to hug every one of my friends! You know you fucking are

p/s : I don't know what I woz talking bout, emotionally unstable

Thanks to Eyeen, she made me realize how I should get over someone who's not deserve to "be over of"? Haha bangang. Kwell, I try my best darling.

I'm freaking out about the studies. SPM is next year but yeah call me nerd to worry about it NOW

I love Mama

I didn't really write what I supposed to write. Everyone, unfriend me..

2011-07-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

Hold on

2011-07-18T08:16:00.001+08:00

2011-07-17T02:37:00.002+08:00

Dear Girl, I think it's time for you to let go of him. He has hurt you and me too much. Just let the memories fade. It's time to leave him behind. I know it'll be hard but its for the best, trust me. Remember, always follow your heart and everything will be fine.

Love always, Your Heart.

p/s: I'm in UIA for the Interschool Debating Championship. We'll talk about it later! x

2011-07-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

2011-07-10T02:35:00.000+08:00

“I'll fall in love once I know what moving on is”

2011-07-10T02:33:00.002+08:00

Tumblr.

I Hate This Part

2011-07-10T00:00:00.004+08:00

Hello.

I hate today, it should be our day.

Screw that I still remember the date & time.

I have been planning many things to do for today since last year I guess.

So many things which I couldn't work it out for certain reason.

I shouldn't remember the day which means nothing to that someone.

I should have not!

But I just can't resist the feelings. Well maybe one day..

Mm-hm. Fuck. My. Life.

Why lah I'm home? It reminds me of him even more.

It has been 3 months. I should get over myself!

You should, Nurain Syakirah. You should

#nowplaying A Day To Remember - If It Means A Lot To You

Thailandynamite!

2011-07-08T17:22:00.004+08:00

Boom boom! I'm loving Thailand. I just can't express it with words yknow.

Thai people are awesome. I wish I could be there for a longer period of time.

The way they welcomed us & everything is just perfect!

I had two buddies named Mean & Kukkai.

They said Mean & I look alike. Hehe.

In the night we had some activities with them, it was fun, real fun!

Following day was Princess Chulabhorn's birthday celebration.

So me & other 9 were performing the Malay traditional dance. Not to forget the ASiS students.

In the evening, we the girls played this game called Kabuddy I guess.Hahaha sort of Kejar-kejar game I think.

Day 3- We went to the Walailak University after the story-telling competition ended.

Day 4- We went to.. um I'm not sure. This village where we made our own soap & we ate pomelos there. Later on, we went for a boat ride. And in the night we enjoyed the farewell party which was totally awesome! I love Thai people, I must say. It was such a long day but it was worth it. In the night, we spent our time trying their uniform & Mean was so happy to wear my uniform, she loves it! Haha. Then I taught Mean how to use Skype so that I can keep in touch with em later. I slept 3 in the morn that night. I also gave Pop my tudung hehe.

Day 5- Umm. That was sweet when we cried as we were going to leave Thailand :( I love them. And I swear I'm going to miss them. Life's sucks in Mals! Just like Pop said, Thailand is all about freedom.

From Malaysia with love,

Syakirah.

2011-07-03T03:23:00.005+08:00

Halu!

Long time no talk, as usual school excuses.

It's hard to be in here.

Okay, so tomorrow I'll fly to Thailand with 29 others for the twinning programme.

It'll be until Friday.

Then Sports Day is on Sunday. I can go back home afterwards! Yay :D

Anyway.. I am chosen as one of the 40 prefects, never will believe that. Lulz.

How's life? It's still the same.

And I have someone who I can share my stories to now as we are experiencing the same thing, mmhm. Boys sux! Hahahahahahaha -.-

We've learn how to move on, girls

Till then, love

2011-06-12T12:53:00.005+08:00

So, the second week of holiday was going okay um great, I guess. I was kinda busy with the seminar where I met my Eyeen. We had Sushi King with the others which is our favourite.

Went to my heaven, Tutti Frutti.

Watched KL Gangster & Kung Fu Panda 2 with my goys & birls.

Surprised my Awadah on her birthday & celebrated it the next day.

I love every second of it.

Briefly, I didn't complete my homework, yeah..

Who cares?

And once I get back to the school I'll be so busy.

Cheer, dance, twinning programme, prefect thingy and last but never least, the homeworks.

Shiz.

I'll be missing my friends & everything here. Mm.

Wish me luck, going back to the hostel.

Another hour and I'll be on my way to the school.

Bye, love.

p/s: Life is never easy

2011-06-07T02:16:00.004+08:00

It's funny when that moment in 2010, I found out my heartbreaker was officially with someone else, I was with my girlfriends.

And the same thing happened in 2011, when I found out the second heartbreaker is officially with someone else, I was with the birls & goys.

Life...

Anyway they have a lot in common.

Alright, this is so random. Till then x

Randumb Survey

2011-06-03T17:03:00.006+08:00

1. What was the highlight of your week?

Ulu Yam?

2. Whose car were you in last?

My car. Um my sister's I mean

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?

Upcoming 9 years

4. What color shirt are you wearing?

White pink

5. How long is your hair?

Chest length

6. Are you good looking?

Ugly yet adorable

7. Last movie you watched?

Diary of A Wimpy Kid

8. Who were you with?

Him

9. Last thing you ate?

Mentos

10. Last thing you drank?

Iced lime

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?

7 days ago

12. Who came over last?

Relatives

13. Are you happy right now?

Might be

14. What did you say last?

"I'm good"

15. Where is your phone?

On the bed

16. What color are your eyes?

Brown

17. Are you left-handed?

Right-handed

18. Spell your name without vowels:

Nrn Sykrh

19. Do you have any pets?

Used to, Chy

20. Favorite Vacation?

Hm, none

21. What do you dislike currently?

Myself

22. What are you listening to?

That Should Be Me

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?

Happiness

24. What is your favorite scent?

The sweet smell of him

25. Who makes you happiest?

Not sure..

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Reminiscing

27. When is your birthday?

April 11, 95

28. Who has the same phone as you?

Afiq

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?

I never can swim

30. Do you read your horoscope?

At times

31. Where was the last place you bought something?

Wangsa Maju

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?

Very the nipis one

33. Do you bite your nails?

Yesssssss!

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?

I don't even know

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?

Tanya juta kali

36. Twitter or facebook?

37. How fast have you driven a car?

80 kmph, hahahaha

38. Have you ever smoked?

Never

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?

Maths

40. Do you have Verizon?

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?

Cute one

42. Do you have any hidden talents?

Maybe

43. Favorite Song?

Ne-Yo's

44. Do you like to sing at all?

Always

45. Dream Job?

A surgeon

46. Where does most of your family live?

Kuala Lumpur

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?

Other 6

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

With certain people, yes

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?

For today, memories

50. Do you drink?

51. Know any other languages?

Malay? Hehe

52. Ever write a coded message?

Always

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?

Yes

54. Do you have any children?

Yes, nenek kau

55. Did you take a nap today?

56. Who has the same birthday as you?

My schoolmate, Ika

57. Ever met anyone famous before?

Yes

58. Do you want to be famous one day?

Don't really bother

59. Any Pet Peeves?

Always there

60. Are you multitasking right now?

Most probably

61. Do you like Britney Spears?

Sometimes

62. What is your least favorite chore?

Sweeping

63. Last place you drove your car?

In my neighbourhood

64. Ever been out of the country?

Yes

65. Where were you born?

Kuala Lumpur

66. Could you handle being in the military?

Maybe not

67. What is your average cell phone bill?

Not much, I use public phone. For real

68. Who are you thinking about right now?

....

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?

Yesterday

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

7-8?

71. Are your toes always painted?

72. How many piercings do you have?

None

73. What are you doing today?

Laze around

74. Have you ever been gambling?

75. When is the last time you updated your page?

Just now

76. Do you like rollercoasters?

Love it

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?

LaLa from Teletubbies

79. Last thing you cooked?

Couldn't recall

80. How's the weather?

Great

81. Do you e-mail?

Assignment purposes

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?

Eat it

83. Last time you were sick?

Really sick? February 2010

84. What states have you lived in?

The current state I'm living in

85. Do you wish you could move?

Not now

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?

Pelanciao

87. What is your dream car?

Fairlady

88. Have you ever wanted someone you can't have?

Yes

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?

Right by yo side

90. Are you happy with your life?

48% yes

2011-06-03T16:47:00.003+08:00

I can't do that. I can't. I have to do what I think is right. If I listen to my heart? Um uh.

It is hard when my mind send me a signal and my heart send me another signal at the same time. A very different signals.

Which one should I go for?

It's hard.

Why am I still here?

I know.

I should have moved on. Come on.

I'm putting my biggest effort on this.

I start my day with a big smile on my face, which I myself, don't know whether it is genuine or not.

I try to make myself feel better. I tell myself that I'm happy.

But I still can't do anything about it.

I just wanna die. I wanna die. I have to.. die.

2011-06-02T09:22:00.004+08:00

Ooyeah. Yesterday, I went to Ulu Yam with ze DecP ♥ Lol, it stands for December People.

Hahaha. I'm weirdo, knew it.

So yeah, just like Zaim said, I'm so motherly to bring the foods & wtv. It's me! No motherly, pls?

On the way there, it was raining. But, it stopped once we arrived.

So yeah, the sungai was ours! Hoo haa.

It was sorta hard for me & Sofea to go against the flow. It was quite strong.

The water made me happy, k random, forget it.

Done with that, we made our move to watch Wimpy Kid which had been released quite a few weeks ago. But um, I asked them to watch it with me. Thanks.

And yeah it was so hilarious.

At 6, I went to Shakib class. Yay, I miss him. His class, I mean.

So there, I met Alyna, Nini & Emi. Too bad, I couldn't make it to the Add Maths class :'(

I had to go to Katy's house with the big boss, Zaim.

So yeah, we enjoyed our macaroons there. Beautiful macaroons~

Nyihaaaaa :D Whatever.

I loved to have they here last night, just the right time.

You know, when I found out that he is hers, I cried my heart out & knowing my friends were there for me. At least I didn't go kill myself last night.

I have tuition today, almost forgot! :S

Till then x

2011-06-02T09:20:00.001+08:00

The End.

I'm Weak

2011-06-01T03:21:00.014+08:00

It's June 1. Remember, what happened 30 days ago? Mmhm.

It was terrible. It is terrible. I still can see myself crying over you.

Maybe, it's true. This is my fault.

What I've done to you when we were together & all..

Maybe, I never appreciate you & your love.

It's my turn. To be hurt.

They said you'll never realize how much you care about someone until he doesn't care about you anymore. Yeah. I should have treat you right.

Maybe, I took you for granted.

All this time, you were keeping my faults to yourself, and now you exploded & you were like holding a grudge against me. Am I right?

Maybe, you are done with it. But I'm not.

I love you so much, maybe it didn't show, but I do. You have no idea how much I love you.

I'll take care of all those memories. I'll hold on to the promises. I'll always be here, yes here.

Now, all I can do is to watch you with her. I just don't wanna disturb you anymore.

There's this voice in my head said if I love you, I should be happy to see you happy.

That's what I tryna do now. To see you happy.

I'll be fine. I won't disturb your life.

But stop being so mean & threw all the blame on me. I got it.

All I wanna ask from you is, I'd love the thoughts of you to always be with me. I hope you won't mind. That's all.

I'm sorry. I tried.

Try to be strong just like what I did last two years before you were there in my life and saved me.

Remember? When I told you about him, the heartbreaker? You said you would never be like him.

But now? Mm, it is not your fault. You'll always be the best.

One thing is for sure, you'll always have me here :) Bear that in yo mind.

I'm still hoping.. stop crying

2011-05-31T16:30:00.002+08:00

“Naura no more.”

2011-05-30T21:23:00.009+08:00

“You'll fly me to the place where there's only the two of us, you promised.”

I trust you. You promised me you'll always love me even though I hate you.

I trust you. You promised me you won't break your promises.

I trust you. You said I'm the best you ever had.

I trust you. You said you would rather hurt yourself than make me sad.

I trust you. You promised me we will be forever.

I trust you. You said you're nothing without me.

I trust you. You said you're mine.

I trust you. You said no one can stop us 'cause they know we'll be forever.

I trust you. You said I'm one in a million

I trust you. You said having me is the only thing you need for your life.

I trust you. You promised me you won't leave me.

I trust you. You said you trust me.

I trust you. You said you won't find a girl who loves you like I do.

I trust you. You said you're the luckiest boy to have me.

I trust you. You said this thing are not going to happen to us.

I trust you. You swore me you won't let me hurt because of you.

I trust you. You said I'm everything to you.

I trust you. You said my touch makes you feel better.

I trust you. You said my kiss makes you feel like an angel is loving you.

I trust you. You said it'll only be me.

I trust you. You promised me you'll always be there for me.

I trust you. You said if we are not together, I'm the one who left.

I trust you. You said you'll do anything to make me happy.

I trust you. You said you won't break my heart.

I trust you.

You said we must get married anyhow.

I trust you. You said my children will have resemblance to you.

You said roses are red, violets are blue as you say I'm bad, but I'm the one who will always love you.

Now, the difference is...

I trust you, still, but.. You said you don't care.